byebye

Mr Weak has currently quit blogging, he may or may not coming back again but he will always alive at mr_weak@msn.com......





FAREWELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bad Day

Today is another night with full moon, recently the night has been so beautiful, just that the stars in the sky ws not that much haha...... Today was a bad day for me in the begining, early in the afternoon i was "half deaf", don't know for what reasons my right ear was nearly mute after finish bathing, at first i thought was water stuck in the ear however it was not. The whole day i felt so uncomfortable as i can't hear what others were talking to me clearly and i speak very soft as i can't hear how loud i talking, the whole day was crap, haiz... When having dinner, i bite a fish bone and my gum was bleedy, WHAT A DAY haha......

About 2 more weeks ite will start, a lot of things happened in this past few month of holidays, time past so fast... Next week i am leaving Singapore again, 5 days of overseas, look like quite short but is very long to me as after i came back from overseas will be school time!!! I hope ite's life wil be fine, hope that will be "peaceful" there haha......

I felt that time past very slow without "you"......

Nothing

So long never blog liao, actually intend to quit blogging but nvm, too boring so writing smething better than nothing haha, i think i haven't been updating for the past few weeks...? Recently i always hang out with my friends at night and i realise that the night sky was very beautiful as the moon is so bright and there were so many stars around the moon, maybe one night i climb up to mount faber and i will have a better view of the sky...... I feel glad that going out with my friends, i can laugh out those unhappy things which store inside my mind, those laughter really make me an enjoyable day. Although sometimes we maybe childish but we enjoy being like small kids doing some childish moves, we enjoy and laugh through it......

A few days ago i went to Dover ITE to report for entering the Electrical Engineering course. After leaving the school, something come to my mind, i talk to myself that i regret what i did in the past, maybe i really did not put in the effort to take my O level so end up entering ITE. However this was the path i chose and was too late to turn back, i just felt sorry to those teachers that help me a lot, i hope i can repay them somedays. I don't expect to be very good but i hope i can show some results to them in the future as pay back, at least i didn't waste their effort, i really hope that i can buck up......

I feel that i'm going to become a piece of thrash if i continue to be myself......

relax?

Last few days i went out for holidays with my friends at one of our friend's house. Her house was big enough to fit at least 10 person so we can save money for chalet haha... We had so much fun over these few days as we play until crazy? The first day i remember we play hide-and-seek at about 12 midnight, her house have 3 levels and when all the lights went off the house was so creepy hehe......

There was one thing i had ever done in my life as we play manjong!!! From night 9pm till 7am, normally this timing was my sleeping time but these few days we keep playing at this time. After finish the game then we went to bed and we wake up at afternoon 4pm sia haha......

Haiz, too tired to continue to write on, sometimes writing blog i feel a bit boring as nobody come see de, anyway just write bah, who cares haha......

hatred

Today i am writting again in front of my com with my noodles (meh-ke-mee) haha, no choice as i was being force to stay at home by my parents. This time my noodles was much better than last time as it was delicious haha, i wonder what am i ging to do next after writing this post as i only can do something at home. Sometimes, i feel tht home = jail to me, some more i was being force to stay home, i really don't understand what my parents thinking, past few days i was out and reach home near 11 30 then they complaint don't know what shit, i don't think i have any wrong as i was no longer small kids, why can't they be more understandable??? I feel that instead of treating them as my parents, maybe i should try treating them as my enemies......

Recently i just don't feel good, however spending time with my friends outside i feel refresh. However when i reach home, i feel that i was a bird being keep in a cage, so dead... I just don't feel that home is no longer as as sweet as before. In my mind, i only feel that without friends, i have no more reasons or living, i have longer think of my parents anymore...

Anyway, i start to worry about my future. As i was going to ite to study, i feel that if i can not even make it, i will learn to be a chef (confuse)... Why my problems always keep coming and they were never be solve unless........?

Boring

Life is so bored with nothing better to do, it is a rainy afternoon and i has to stay at home to write this post since i'm so bored and can't think of anything to do haha... At first intend to sleep till 12 at least because i have nothing to do if i wake up, but i was awaken at 10!!! But is ok, although i couldn't get back into my dream, i still lie on de bed and day dream haha... (better than nothing right?) Then here came another problem, as i was lazy to go down and have lurch, so i make myself so noodles(men-ke-man). Suddenly when i cook i feel very excited, maybe i really interested in cooking haha, however when i start eating i find the taste a bit sour but i never care and i finish it haha... (is not my fault to make the taste sour, don't think wrongly)

Sometimes i feel that i'm a strange person, i always think tt by smiling or rather laughing out can solve a lot of problems, which also can make myself happier. However, sometimes i feel very sad inside but i just laugh it out, so tt my brothers will not worry about me... is what i said really true i also not so sure about myself? Intend to write a lot however my mind is blank again, maybe continue next time bah......

I always wonder who will be the one to really understand me..... i'm waiting for the inner me...?

Changes

Not sure what to say, i felt that a lot of things changes around me, or rather i changes, i also not so sure about myself haha...... I just felt that things were not going so good around me everyday but i don't know why!!! Recently i felt that i become very bad luck, both my hands got burnt and cuts around, then tonight i went to buy "teh ice"(take away) but halfway the bag got hole and the drink leak away haha...... Hmm, still got a lot i can't remember as who the hell noob will always think about the past that make me so painful haha......

By the way i gone back to the noob shop to work haha...... As a part time instead of full time, also the paid was higher so i went back. However, i find that something is not right this time as something is just not right. Recently, too much things happened that make me very confuse so what i did may be wrong i also not know...... What is the something actually, even me myself don't know......

Where i belong, only my soul know my future route......